Looking Heavenward

I have to be honest in confessing that QT hasn't been happening regularly in my life lately, and that I consciously skipped last week after conjuring up a string of excuses not to do it. Obviously, having a strict self-discipline is not at all an easy thing for me... and I probably need accountability more than ever in times like this when I'm spiritually struggling to grow. Nevertheless, I found today's passage really blessing and I thank God for it.

I've always wondered if there will ever come a time when I'll be able to finally settle down somewhere and just live a stable life forever. My life seems to be always on a journey somewhere, uprooting me from the places I found comfortable and placing me at a strange place, only to grow comfortable once again and follow this vicious cycle. First, my family never lived in one house for more than five years. Likewise, I didn't have many friendships that lasted more than five years. And there was no church that I could call my home church for more than five years. I really wish things were different.

But the Scripture tells me otherwise. "Now we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands." The building from God is where God wants me to call home. It's indestructible, it's always there, and it's open for me - and God tells me that I belong there. I can live in the grandest of all mansions a man could build, but to God, it'd only be as feeble as a tent.

I realized today, that my deepest desire is still set on reaching the utopia of stability and comfort. And I also realized today, that this desire will leave me in a tent, in a desert, without a solid place to call home. Living a stable life is desirable, but it's such an empty purpose for life. Where I am now, whether I'm doing spiritually/materially doing well or not, is only a temporary stopover - but not a permanent dwelling. If I ever desire a home, I want that be in heaven. (And take comfort in knowing that.)