Waiting.

Sorry... it's been a while. =)

Sometimes God feels so close, yet so far. Many times I feel like I'm left alone to deal with my problems and my sins, while knowing only in my mind that God is around somewhere watching me - but not helping. How can I be closer to God? (Not just in my feelings)

It's so awesome that God is patient. But sometimes I don't want God to be patient with some things, because I hate waiting. Waiting sounds like something I could do lying around on a couch, as if I'm waiting for a friend to arrive, but the way God wants me to wait is by sending me to a war zone.

Yesterday I went to a cafe called Ellen's Stardust Cafe with Pastor Joe and some friendly people I met at his church, near Times Square and all the Broadway theaters. All their waiters and waitresses were singers hoping to make it to the stage someday, and many current Broadway stars used to work in that cafe too. They carried around wireless mics as they served and provided some *awesome* live music from all the Broadway shows.

I guess we all have that same hope. Being spiritually united with Jesus seems so distant into the future, but for now, we're called to wait. Serve. Just as these singers work hard in that cafe with only one goal.

v.21 hit me, but I'm still confused. I guess we all carry a clear conscience that tells us what to do, or what not to do, as Christians. But I think there's a lot we can learn about ourselves (and about God) only by waiting. Waiting calls us to live every day faithfully. The Israelites heard, but didnt' get to see for themselves what was to come.

v.18: Yet the LORD wants to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!

I'll pray for every person I'll be meeting today, and make them feel comfortable around me.