Waiting.

Sorry... it's been a while. =)

Sometimes God feels so close, yet so far. Many times I feel like I'm left alone to deal with my problems and my sins, while knowing only in my mind that God is around somewhere watching me - but not helping. How can I be closer to God? (Not just in my feelings)

It's so awesome that God is patient. But sometimes I don't want God to be patient with some things, because I hate waiting. Waiting sounds like something I could do lying around on a couch, as if I'm waiting for a friend to arrive, but the way God wants me to wait is by sending me to a war zone.

Yesterday I went to a cafe called Ellen's Stardust Cafe with Pastor Joe and some friendly people I met at his church, near Times Square and all the Broadway theaters. All their waiters and waitresses were singers hoping to make it to the stage someday, and many current Broadway stars used to work in that cafe too. They carried around wireless mics as they served and provided some *awesome* live music from all the Broadway shows.

I guess we all have that same hope. Being spiritually united with Jesus seems so distant into the future, but for now, we're called to wait. Serve. Just as these singers work hard in that cafe with only one goal.

v.21 hit me, but I'm still confused. I guess we all carry a clear conscience that tells us what to do, or what not to do, as Christians. But I think there's a lot we can learn about ourselves (and about God) only by waiting. Waiting calls us to live every day faithfully. The Israelites heard, but didnt' get to see for themselves what was to come.

v.18: Yet the LORD wants to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!

I'll pray for every person I'll be meeting today, and make them feel comfortable around me.

I Will Wait on the LORD

Ok. I wanted to do Saturday's entry instead of the Wednesday one. :p


To wait = to trust.

To wait for = to wait on?
I'm supposing they mean the same thing...
...but at the same time I know they aren't exactly the same.

We are able to wait for God in confidence because we have already experienced the faithfulness
with which God accomplished his longtime plan.


To wait for = to be faithful?

If that's the case....

I will be faithful to God, because He has been faithful to me first.
(like the present perfect tense? =D)

It's weird to say this because, of course, being human,
I know I will break this promise sometime in the future.


But I hope I will continue to say this when that time comes.

your light will rise in the darkness.

I didn't get my passage for this week. So. I will write about a passage I read last night. Ok? Ok.

9 Then you will call, and the LORD will answer;
you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I.
"If you do away with the yoke of oppression,
with the pointing finger and malicious talk,

10 and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry
and satisfy the needs of the oppressed,
then your light will rise in the darkness,
and your night will become like the noonday.

11 The LORD will guide you always;
he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land
and will strengthen your frame.
You will be like a well-watered garden,
like a spring whose waters never fail.

12 Your people will rebuild the ancient ruins
and will raise up the age-old foundations;
you will be called Repairer of Broken Walls,
Restorer of Streets with Dwellings.

[isaiah 58]


I did a little summin called inductive bible reading.
I just wanted to highlight (literally, too) verse 10:
your light will rise in the darkness.

Lets take that apart, shall we?


your: God. duh.
light: light. duh.
will: future tense. it's a promise. it will happen.
rise: rise. duh.
but with the previous word, it's a promise that we will rise. duh.
in the darkness: this is what caught my attention. it doesn't just say, "your light will rise", but, "your light will rise...in the darkness".



A lot of things have been happening around me: my friends, my fellowship, my campus. It's all so...surreal. I think that God is about to move and that this is precisely why we are getting attacked harder and with greater frequency.

Satan must be pretty nervous about what God's going to do.


Darkness. In order for our light to shine, we must not remain comfortable in the light, but place ourselves in the dark, where our light is most needed.

But at the same time, the emphasis isn't merely on "in the darkness". The emphasis is also on "your light will rise". His light will rise. His light will conquer. This is a promise. This is a promise that God's light will conquer in the darkness, where we must go so that our light shines, and shines oh so brightly.

This is a message of hope.

A Reluctant Avenger

wow...
how great is our God...
i have always considered God as my friend and father more than anything else...
but today's passage reminded me of how awesome God is...
He is just... and so loving... that He showers us with His mercy time and time again no matter how many times we fall... though we deserve punishment for our sins... God has forgiven us...
many times we forget this... or take it for granted... we fall into temptation knowing God's forgiveness will be there for us...
our lives were not meant to be lived in that way... we ought to live our days with thankfulness... praising God for His unconditional love... for His forgiveness... for His gift of salvation...
in response, we should want not to sin... but to be thoughtful in our actions... to live our lives in worship of Him...